is it ocd - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

dan30606 · 07-09-2003, 05:42 PM

alright everyone im new to this board and im in a bit of a mess.My names dan and im 19. Im confused does anyone relly know what ocd really is.When i left school i was totally confused and coudn't stop thinking. Analizing myself and everyone around me. Constanstly worrying tying to solve my problem.I was lost and got extremly anixious.I never told any of my mates the way i was really feeling because i was so confused,so as a way of dissmising these anxious thoughts i would tap and count to a certain number.Doing this would reasure me. cos if i didnt i would just fill emptiey.Thou it wasn't the only sort of compultion i had.I would get introding thoughts i couldnt get rid of without feeling the need to say or do certain things.
I read some where that people like me were sceard that if they never done these compulsive routines somthing bad would happen.I realized nothing bads gonna happen if i dont do this so i stopped and got myself out of it.The fist day was the hardest but it got beter.I still get wearid thoughts now but i have to ignore them.My ocd (if thats what i had)was fueled by anixety where i had let my confusing thoughts control me over a three year period, where my mind was totally centered on myself.My question to everyone is that ocd.thanks

JjW1 · 07-09-2003, 07:16 PM

Hey Dan,
i'm 14 and pretty sure i have OCD. what you wrote sure sounds like OCD...the tapping to a certain number. I too, have untrue, intruding thoughts. One summer, i could barely do anything without doing things to destroy the thoughts. things like tapping, walking past a certain place or thing repeatedly, etc... After a while i started to ignore the thoughts and it got better. I hope this bit of info helps you. what you are describing, really sounds like OCD to me, but i am not a doctor so i cannot be sure.

Kathrin74 · 07-09-2003, 09:06 PM

Hello Dan,

it does sound like OCD. And (wow, congratulations on this one!!!) it sounds like you did a very good job on doing cognitive-behavioral therapy on yourself. Do the thoughts still bother you now or do you feel like you're really "over it"?
I suggest you read the book Brain Lock (there's another thread on it on this board), it helps understand these symptoms!

Kathrin

p.s. it is very rare that I have heard of somebody just resisting the OCD thoughts by themselves... Good for you!!!!

JjW1 · 07-10-2003, 10:55 AM

I still get thoughts, just i have less compulsive urge to the thoughts because i realize they are untrue. but i still get the compulsiveness alot too.

dan30606 · 07-10-2003, 11:36 AM

thanks to everyone that replied to my message.I beleive everyone gets unwanted thoughts.Like when somthing you are worring about keeps surfacing and it keeps playing on your mind.You have to just dismiss it.I beleive, my expirance of ocd was brought on by years of constant worring, depression,and anixiety.I was heavily confused when i left school(and still a bit now)but i had no one there to reasure me.I let my imagination go out of control. After time ocd become my way of dealing with life(espically when i would go out with mates and pretend i was fine).Dont get me wrong i still get compultions(when im anixious) but i dont do them because i just fill worse afterwards.I just want to say good luck to everyone who is suffering with this at the moment but i would'nt look at it as being a disorder because it is a very strong word.And everyone can get like that if they let it.

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