Re: Need help with obsessive religious thoughts of hell
I just want to say that I have had major issues with OCD throughout my life. I didn't know what was wrong with me until when I was fourteen and started to research it on my own. My family never even knew I had it, although they could tell from some of my compulsions that something weird was going on with me (they would laugh at me). Anyway, I like you, believe that there is a God. How could I have gotten through all I have without him? He is always there for me when I pray IN FAITH that He is there listening and wanting to help me. I think sometimes people with OCD sometimes don't want to believe in Him because they think it will make their anxieties skyrocket. I come from a deeply religious background, and sometimes the fear of hell made my anxieties skyrocket. Because I thought, if I'm having all of these fears that I am going to do this or that I must be a bad person, and how could God possibly love me when I've been afraid I would do all of those bad things? How could He possibly? But the thing is, I believe God feels sorry that we are going through this. I personally think He understands. I think He knows everything about us, and that includes our fears, worries and anxieties. I believe we should tell God in prayer what our worries are-and be blunt with Him-say it like it is. He is not going to put you in Hell. I believe He will be happy that you are finally sharing that burden and that worry with Him. I think He loves us and understand us more than we could possibly begin to understand. I don't think God ever intended for us to feel this way about Hell. I think He WANTS us to be in heaven with him and worries about those of us that worry TOO much. For whatever reasons we have developed this difficult and painful OCD, it is not our fault. Who would TRY to develop OCD? Some people don't care at all about what they do and do bad stuff because they want to. Those of us with OCD overreact and we try to be TOO good, which creates the opposite problem. Once in a while we need to allow ourselves to make some mistakes and just sit there and accept our mistakes and accept ourselves with all of our flaws. Anyway, these are my thoughts about it.