obsessed with myself - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

DEDprez · 10-09-2003, 02:35 PM

i dont know whats wrong with me but this is my problem, im a guy and i am VERY obsessed with my self image.i look in the mirror probably 80 to 100 times a day to make sure everything about me is perfect. i speeeeeend hours making my hair perfect and washing my face. when im in school ill go to the bathroom dozens of times to look in the mirror.one minute ill think im the finest lookin guy to grace this earth, and the next ill think im the ugliest guy in the world.i also very badly want a afro (im half black and have thin hair, unlike most of my family who have nappy hair) i think thats the main issue. ill spend hours frizzing my hair in circles so it looks nappy, and by hours i mean all day pretty much.i know some may think im a pretty boy, but this obsession is driving me insane. it runs my life. if im not looking in the mirror im afraid people are looking at me as flawed and i have panic attacks.does anyone else have this problem?

PauloSRS · 10-14-2003, 02:31 AM

Welcome to the club OCD young one...i've been trought that stage too...but after trying to kill myself everything became so vane that even that doesn't matter anymore...

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skippypeterson · 10-15-2003, 07:33 PM

I am not a professional, however, I believe you
may have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Or BDD.
I too have this disorder which is related to OCD.

An excellent book for reading is The Broker Mirror.

This is VERY treatable!

Marilyn Monroe · 10-20-2003, 01:52 AM

I have that BPD, I'm sure of it, it takes me hours to get perfect, but if I go out with little make-up on, I think I'm like the ugliest person ever. Everything has to be just perfect for me to have a good time.
If I have a bad skin or a bad hair day, I don't even want to leave the freakin house!

I need to read that book, tho i doubt it would help, my stepmother looks like Lonnie Anderson with dark hair(she prefers Elizabeth Taylor) and has been obsessed with her face and hair and skin her whole life, she looks GREAT for her age because of this, but is still really a miserable person.
Vanity is a terrible thing, it can be a prison.