food consumtion and O.C.D - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

Enkidu · 10-27-2003, 10:48 AM

hello
i am a streesed out first year college student that (i think) has ocd. I have a new obseesion. I cannot eat certain fatty foods. I am already under weight because i'm afraid of going over 100 pounds.I'm about 5'5. I know that i am not fat so it's not like anorexia. For example i wanted to get a dounut but this little voice in me said no.I feel that if i eat it something will go wrong with me. Then i grabbed the dounut but i just couldn't eat it.so i let it go.it's getting worse. Has anyone else experienced this? or at least experienced hearing a voice that said you couldn't do something? if so is there any way to get rid of it.
Thank you

spaniellove · 10-29-2003, 02:36 PM

Speaking as someone who is recovering from bulimia/anorexia...you definately sound like you're battling anorexia. Not all anorexics think they're fat, some are afraid of getting fat and a whole bunch of explanations. It is used to cope with things strangly enough. Anorexia is not eating enough on a consistant basis deliberately. At 5'5 and 100lbs you are may evey be below 10% of your ideal body weight which suggests that this is a problem. I don't mean to be preachy, so I hope I'm not. Having an ed is hell. If this is just beginning to be a problem or if your guilt has been a persistant factor in your eating, please tell someone you love, talk to your doctor and go from there.

xxx Lindsay

GettingWellAgain · 11-06-2003, 09:08 PM

Hi,
I also think it may be anorexia. I struggled with anorexia when I was taking a certain medication- the side effect was anorexia! Well, I blame the medication for disordering my eating at that time, but I'm still terrified of gaining weight, since I used to be heavy. I'm the same height as you and I weigh around 110, so weighing under 100 pounds is definitely VERY thin, not to put you down in any way, shape, or form. I personally think you should seek therapy because you do not want this to get out of control. I no longer have disordered eating, but I have a distorted body image, and I do know what it's like to be like you. For me, it started out the same way. A little voice would tell me not to eat something fattening, too, and then it got to the point of obsessively writing in food diaries and counting calories, using diet pills, printing pictures of emaciated girls out and making collages, pinching fat pockets all day long (I STILL do that), and exercising excessively. Of course, you may never get like that, but if you are concerned that this is affecting your life, please, please, seek therapy now. I wish you the best of luck.