| | Re: Is this OCD or psychosis??
I am not a Dr., but I believe it sounds like you are suffering from OCD thoughts, not psychotic thoughts. It's also quite common for people with OCD (me included!) to think or fear they are schizophrenic, going crazy, or psychotic. It can often feel that way at times....but I think the key indicator that it is not psychosis is that you are questioning it in the first place....
What I mean is, people with OCD are generally well-aware that their thoughts are irrational, and yet they cannot reason them away, so they continue to cause anxiety. It sounds like you recosnize your thoughts as irriational, and while you worry that they might be true, that someone might be hacking, you might have a certain disease or whatever, you are able to realize these thoughts as false.
Does that make sense? Have you found a new Dr.? If not, I suggest you find a new Dr, who specializes in OCD, they can help you understnad what it happening with your thoughts/compulsions and give you tools to better control it, thus decreasong it';s control of you.
I have been diagnosed with OCD for 15 years. I didn;t get consistent help until the past few years, medication has been a great help to me, and I wish I had tried it sooner!!