Lately, some awful thoughts have been drifting in my head that I don't mean at all. Like when I'm at church a random a random thought like "F*** Jesus" or something like that pops in my head. I DONT MEAN THAT AT ALL.
Its like subconciously I'm really a bad person. And like that when I see someone I like a random thought comes in my head like "I hate you."
And yet again, these thoughts have no connection to how I really feel about things! I feel horrible and guilty afterwords because some of the thoughts are just so messed up. I am just in a tizzy that I can't control my own thoughts and that is one of the few things that other people get to control.
I am not at all a spiteful person and I don't know why this is happening to me.
Please help! I feel like such a wierdo. Has anyone else experienced this?
(P.S. I have ADD, depression, anxiety, and OCD)