Re: Ocd ruining my life.
How long have you been treating this? How long on meds? Sounds like the meds aren't working properly for what you're experiencing and may not be the right ones for you. When I first started taking medication, the first one I took was awful and I got off it after 5 days. When I switched I had almost instant relief (at least compared to before). My meds help with my depression but I have really bad social phobia and it hasn't really helped me with that yet, my dr says you need to stay on a med for at least 6 wks to see how it is going to fully benefit you.
Have you thought about or are you seeing a counselor? I can sit here and write a page on things that may help you, but talking with someone may help you discover why you are experiencing these thoughts and feelings.