Playing with my hair
I don't pull it out, but I am constantly, constantly playing with it. I put one finger on top of the other and run my hair through it so that I can feel it on my nail. Especially when my hair is cold, it gets worse, because it feels so much better. I also twirl it. I've done this since I was small, my mom used to find it cute because my grandma did it too. But I've gone beyond cute to just plain obsessive about it.
I'm talking playing with my hair as I'm going to sleep, while I'm sleeping, when I'm watching a show, when I'm walking down the street and riding my bike. When I'm trying to study, sometimes I'll just stop and play with my hair for minutes until I realize I'm not getting any work done. I'll stop, go back to studying, and then start doing it again. It can take me an hour to write a small paragraph. Whenever I have a free hand, it seems to be in my hair. My boyfriend tries to get me to stop whenever he notices by holding my hands, but sometimes the urge is so strong that I have to go back and do it again and it's all I think about.
It's not a terrible problem, and like I said I'm not pulling it out of my head thank goodness. But, lately, it has definitely stopped me from being very productive when attempting to do work. I do it everywhere and people think I'm a bit odd for it. I don't know how to stop because every time I tell myself to stop doing it, either the urge is too strong to yield or else I get distracted by something and my hand just flies up to my hair again. I think I've paused about ten times while writing this to sit here and play with my hair.
I never thought about having OCD before but I think this is definitely not just a small habit anymore. What are the options out there, if any?