Entirely unsure about my OCD...
Hi all, new to this really so bear with me.
Ever since I can remember I have been physically destructive without even realising. I am constantly peeling the skin off my lips, often resulting in bleeding lips which scab over and look horrendous and are incredibly painful.
Every time my hands are free I pick my face. Often I pick and squeeze spots, even the tiniest, until they bleed and scab over, then pick the scabs till I'm left with unsightly scars and holes. I can't have anything 'on' my face. If I have no spots I just pick anything I can find, often nothing. This happens at work, at home, in public, everywhere. 24 hours a day. It is so embarrassing when my face is red raw and bleeding. I just can't stop. I almost faint sometimes the pain is so incredible. If there are spots on my back I have to get them and will do this in public, and if I can't reach someone else has to do it and if nobody is around it affects my entire mood and can change the course of my day as I just can't rest or get it off my mind.
I also bite the insides of my cheeks and rip the skin off. My behaviour is very odd and I know this! My boyfriend is clearly very embarrassed, as am I! Is there a reason for this strange strange behaviour, and is there a cure? I am ruining my skin and I know this. Any help greatly appreciated. Thanks.
Edit: also just remembered that I peel the skin off the soles of my feet, just caught myself doing it. Sometimes I draw blood as the skin can be almost 1cm thick. This is very very painful and strange. Half these things I don't even realise I do, hence the late edit.
Last edited by lildunny; 11-24-2010 at 03:38 AM.