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Old 12-14-2010, 01:29 PM   #1
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Has anyone had this thought?

I can never seem to go to sleep at night because I'm afraid someone is going to break into my house; I constantly hear noises, sometimes have to turn on the tv or a light and I'm even afraid to get up to use the restroom, by morning I'm exhausted. When I come home if I feel that someone could've gotten in I will check every drawer, closet, shower etc. Has anyone else felt this way?

 
Old 12-14-2010, 06:08 PM   #2
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It's not the same fear and obsession but recently I have had a somewhat similar obsession. I recently moved and have developed an obsession that something bad (particularly a death) occured in the apartment I live in prior to me moving in. I am even thinking that if I type this out it makes it more likely that it happened. It has really been bothering me. It interferes with my ability to rest and relax. Although not the same obsession, I know the constant fear of the unknown "if"...it can be particularly upsetting.

 
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It's not the same fear and obsession but recently I have had a somewhat similar obsession. I recently moved and have developed an obsession that something bad (particularly a death) occured in the apartment I live in prior to me moving in. I am even thinking that if I type this out it makes it more likely that it happened. It has really been bothering me. It interferes with my ability to rest and relax. Although not the same obsession, I know the constant fear of the unknown "if"...it can be particularly upsetting.
After I read your post I thought our obsessions are very different and then it dawned on me; When I was in highschool I had a friend who lived in an old victorian house with secret passage ways to other rooms and long after our friendship ended and she moved away (15 years or more)I would have dreams that there was a really old ghostly looking woman living under the house, they'd always start out normal and then I would end up in that house trying to stay away from seeing the ghostly woman again. I never understood why I had these dreams for so many years but it did finally stop and one day I saw that the house had burned down and someone put storage units in its place. I never related that to ocd until I saw your post. Wow! I've thought about looking into the history of the house but I think I would rather just stay away from it. One thing that helped me was to not believe in spirits, luck etc. I don't watch scary movies anymore and I try not to watch the news too much but its tough when you want to know whats going on in the world. I've just started watching the news again recently maybe that's why I'm awake at night. If you ever need to vent I'm here.

 
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It's weird isn't it sometimes? I mean, I think we get obsessive thoughts about a lot of different things. Mine have ranged from relationships to how I act and present myself, ect...I obsess a lot. I think obsessions do arise out of some type of deep rooted fear sometimes. Recently I have been obsessing about death and death related things and maybe it just scares me to the point where I start to develop types of obsessions related to it. With your obsession, it isn't the same but still has that unknown "if" that gets, as you said upsetting, but also so annoying because it stops you from resting, enjoying things, ect. I guess sometimes we have to think about living with the unknown, no matter what it might be and just focus on what is important. Easier said than done! I'm here if you want to vent as well. Message me anytime!

 
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It's weird isn't it sometimes? I mean, I think we get obsessive thoughts about a lot of different things. Mine have ranged from relationships to how I act and present myself, ect...I obsess a lot. I think obsessions do arise out of some type of deep rooted fear sometimes. Recently I have been obsessing about death and death related things and maybe it just scares me to the point where I start to develop types of obsessions related to it. With your obsession, it isn't the same but still has that unknown "if" that gets, as you said upsetting, but also so annoying because it stops you from resting, enjoying things, ect. I guess sometimes we have to think about living with the unknown, no matter what it might be and just focus on what is important. Easier said than done! I'm here if you want to vent as well. Message me anytime!
Yes, this particular fear is death related. We sound so much alike its strange. Thank you so much for responding and letting me know I'm not alone in this.

 
Old 12-20-2010, 11:20 AM   #6
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Definitely! We will support each other. Obsessions follow a similar theme for me. Not just the death one...but others as well. Also they play like CDs on a disc changer..sometimes one is of particular focus and next month it might be something new, except I have no control over which CD is playing. Try to enjoy the holidays. Hey, sometimes I laugh at my thoughts because they are soo rediculous. Humor helps sometimes. :-)

 
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I have the same thing. Every little sound or weird shadow or light out the window sets me off with this idea. Everytime I come home I convince myself that a serial killer has somehow broken into my house and is waiting for me to walk into my bedroom. I tell myself it's ridiculous, but I know that if I don't spend a good 5 or or so minutes going through every single crevis and closet and room in the house I won't be able to stop being paranoid about it.

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Old 12-27-2010, 12:57 PM   #8
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Exactly, even if my alarm is on; sometimes I still feel the need to check. I am getting better but I still have the fear, I don't think this one will ever go away. I've been this way as long as I can remember. I do laugh at myself sometimes and that makes it easier too but I also avoid certain shows and news. I do have many other obsessions too and I have to avoid certain things to remain calm. I think I'm either getting really good at avoiding things or i'm getting better; I'm not sure which. I wish I knew of a good therapist in my area who understands this stuff but there aren't any. Have you guys talked to your doctor about ocd or overcoming this fear? How did they tell you to handle it?

 
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Exactly, even if my alarm is on; sometimes I still feel the need to check. I am getting better but I still have the fear, I don't think this one will ever go away. I've been this way as long as I can remember. I do laugh at myself sometimes and that makes it easier too but I also avoid certain shows and news. I do have many other obsessions too and I have to avoid certain things to remain calm. I think I'm either getting really good at avoiding things or i'm getting better; I'm not sure which. I wish I knew of a good therapist in my area who understands this stuff but there aren't any. Have you guys talked to your doctor about ocd or overcoming this fear? How did they tell you to handle it?
Well i've talked to my therapist about these thoughts (though I know there is specialists for this sort of paranoia/anxiety) and she basically just said those thoughts are going to be there but you don't actually have to acknowledge them and feed into them. If you slowly, little by little let yourself push them aside, they might not 100% go away, but it should get easier.

I guess personally it's tough because what if one day there really is someone inside my house? and i'm not careful and I don't prepare myself and instead just walk right into the situation like an idiot? I just can't let it go.

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yeh and i keep getting up every 2 seconds to see if the door is locked to see if the faucets all the way off to see all kinds if stuf its really annoying

 
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yeh and i keep getting up every 2 seconds to see if the door is locked to see if the faucets all the way off to see all kinds if stuf its really annoying
Hi Cortx,

I'm just curious, do you also worry that someone will get in the house? Is that why you check the locks? I usually only have to check the locks once or twice; I don't seem to forget if I've done it anymore like I use to.

 
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Re: Has anyone had this thought?

If my husband only knew... I lay awake at night watching the bedroom door for anything. Any sound absolutely puts me on alert especially if it sounds like a gun being loaded. I look behind things, go to the bathroom and check it and check the other rooms if I can get up the nerve. When I leave the house I can barely come back in for fear there is someone waiting for me. Does this answer your question? Sincerely, searchin

 
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If my husband only knew... I lay awake at night watching the bedroom door for anything. Any sound absolutely puts me on alert especially if it sounds like a gun being loaded. I look behind things, go to the bathroom and check it and check the other rooms if I can get up the nerve. When I leave the house I can barely come back in for fear there is someone waiting for me. Does this answer your question? Sincerely, searchin
Hi Searchin,

Apparently we are alot alike too; do you think it stems from ocd? I drive my husband nuts. lol I make him check the house with me a lot. He has also wondered why the bedroom door has been closed when he wakes up on occasion or why I turn on the t.v. and am sitting straight up in bed as if I heard something. Sometimes when the front door is unlocked and I walk to the driveway I have to come back and check the house to make sure no one got in. If I think I'll worry about it I will take my key and lock the door on my way out to the driveway and back. If I ask my husband "do you think someone got in?" He'll say "it's possible, but highly unlikely." I've heard my bestfriend say the exact same words so sometimes when I have a thought I repeat those words to myself and have even been able to laugh it off. Its actually gotten a lot easier and I don't do these things as much anymore but its just frustrating that its still with me after all these years.

 
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I don't think mine is OCD related. I believe mine is PTSD due to some bad things that have happened in my past. I am glad that you are able to get a handle on this and at least are able to laugh a little! Good Luck to you....searchin

 
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