Originally Posted by Cozimafighta
As ridiculous as this sounds, has anyone ever experienced a fear of success?
Everytime something positive happens in my life ( financially ) or in terms of personal growth and happiness i get a sudden terrible feeling in my mind/stomache that something terrible will happen and i'll lose whatever it is i'm happy about!
For example, i received a promotion recently and in the split second i heard the exciting news i experienced a very negative feeling in my stomache that made me feel like one day this will be taken away and all will turn to doom.
It's like a demon waiting to take my happiness away everytime, it's hard to explain it sometimes but if feels terrible and i can't enjoy my life even though i've worked hard to achieve it all. Feels like i'm unworthy of success ..
Feels terrible - if anyone has similar feelings please shed some light because i feel alone with this one.
p.s. psych is helping me however i'd like to hear if anyone else has this issue with ocd.
I have felt this way; that I would fail at success, that I couldn't live up to the standard, that I convinced other people that I was smarter than i really was or they just thought I was smarter or more capable than I was. As you're on the way up the ladder you might be nervous but it will pass; you'll adjust. Just look back at how far you've come, this is just the next step. You may feel this way again and you'll know how to handle it. I have found what I have felt was success, moved forward, had to take a step backward, moved forward again and found what I feel is success again. Sometimes when I feel that I'm not acheiving enough I remember where I started from and it makes me smile; its really OK to go through strong emotions. Give yourself a pat on the back and try to enjoy it. Congratulations!