kalyspice

So I have had previous thoughts for over 6 months that I finally got to go away. I was very happy for over a month and all was good. Well I read something the other day that kind of upset me, and I couldnt finish it. I thought about it every once in awhile for a couple of days. Yesterday I was looking at a picture on the computer, and for some reason I thought about something, and I had to look at the picture to see what I thought.. But it was so wrong of me to do that. Now i feel terrible because after it happened I was extremely upset, and now the whole thing about me thinking and looking is making me feel like im some psyco, or crazy person. I cant shake this feeling that Im a terrible person.. why did this happen again. Im having such a hard time letting this go.

I dont want this to ever happen to me again, ive never experienced anything like it before.

** I didnt go back to look at the picture it was still up in front of me. It was similiar to my other thoughts kind of.. but I got ths thought while already looking at the picture, and when it happened i thought : what...and because i was already looking at it i got my answer. But i feel terrible..I dont like what I thought. so does this mean, that I truly am not a terrible person.. ?? Please Help ****