Re: please read me !
I'm sorry to hear about your intrusive thoughts, but I'm glad to know you are getting the help you need and deserve! I was just like you, in my early/mid-adolescence I started getting the obsessive part of OCD and then a few years later, out of absolutely nowhere, I had my first intrusive thought that scared me [twenty-three times, hah just kidding] out of my mind. I stayed up for days, thinking I was a complete savage. I still often [as in twenty minutes ago] think awful things about myself and others that fill me with shame, but that is the thing we must remember! We are not bad people, or else we would not feel this overwhelming guilt and be on this message board looking for answers and reassurance. I'm afraid to say, OCD never completely goes away, and intrusive thoughts are even harder to stop than the compulsions, but please do not lose hope my friend! You are already on a fantastic path by realizing you have a problem and going to the people and the medications that can help it. Some tactics I use to stray away from these highly frightening and even more highly irrational intrusive thoughts is by being distracted by television or books [quite often humor], exercise, and by trying to help people. I do hope I've helped just the tiniest bit, I know how scared and alone you feel right now, but remember all of us with OCD have a large amount of bad days, but a good day is coming! I'll leave before I start singing Annie.
Best of luck to you!