My boyfriend and I have come up with a list of the only things I could do that would hurt our relationship, like sleeping with someone else, hooking up with someone else, or trying to hook up with someone else. Once I realized that I wasn't allowed to worry about anything else, my mind started convincing me that I'd tried to hook up with someone else. I legitimately don't remember doing this but I can't get the thought out of my head that it's possible, and as long as it's possible I hate myself. I feel like I have to distance myself from my my boyfriend just in case I betrayed him and don't remember
If anyone has had anything remotely similar to this please let me know that I'm not alone! How do you deal with this???