Grotesque

I don't know what to say really. Since the end of November i've had problems with excessive guilt. It's ruining my life. I hate it, and I don't know but it's making me hate me. It started when I got a tattoo relating to Spider-man, and then it got me thinking about some things I did that wern't that great, and I felt like complete **** because I felt like I didn't desearve to have the tattoo. The tattoo was the trigger for this cycle of guilt. So I would feel guilty about something, and then i'd apologize, and feel better for a day or two maybe, and then after that i'd start to feel guilty for something else all over again. This cycle has been going on since November and now i'm halfway through Febuary and I hate it so much. There's things I don't want to say sorry for, because if I say anything it wont do any good besides just hurt the person. I just want to forget about things that I feel guilty and stop obessing with them. It makes it hard to sleep at night and to eat right. It gives me headaches all day and makes me feel like a zombie. I can't keep apologizing for things because the cycle will just keep repeating. I need to break it but I don't know how. I don't want to spend my last year of high school feeling like this all the time. Is there anyone else with this? Does the OCD make sense or am I crazy? I've seen other things about it. If there's anything anyone knows that can help me I could really use it..thanks.