Re: ROCD and intrusive thoughts constantly, so emotionally drained.
I know exactly how you're feeling, I get these exact same thoughts that happen at least once every five minutes, if not more.
I think the reason that they happe is because they have bad outcomes, and because of those bad outcomes, our minds/OCD/anxiety tell us that they WILL happen, even if we CAN control the outcome.
An example of something where we can control the outcome is, say, cheating on our partners, but because IF we did it, the outcome will be bad, our minds tell us that we will.
An example of something where we cannot control the action is say, dreaming about cheating on your partner. But because when we wake up the next morning and we'll feel bad and guilty and whatever, we think it definitly WILL happen, even though we love our partners very much.
This is a list of things I've been anxious about:
-Stopping loving my girlfriend.
-Cheating on my girlfriend.
-Miraculously loving another girl.
-Becoming a pedophile.
-Becoming sexually attracted to an animal or a family member.
And then lesser worries, which won't affect her as much:
-Becoming addicted to gambling.
-Smoking cigarettes or illicit drugs.
-An inability to sleep.
-Waking up in the morning and having the same day over again, like 'Groundhog Day'.
Anxiety is cruel, and I'm no expert, but I do know that I love my girlfriend very much, and in a way, the anxiety is good.
Because you feel bad about not loving your partner, it means you do, it means you don't want to hurt them, which in turn means you still love them.
It's when the anxiety destroys that thought is when you're really in trouble.