Hello everyone!
I looking for your opinions really, although I'm not sure where to start!
I think I may have ‘obsessional’ OCD. I have had the symptoms (now I know that these are the symptoms) since I was a child. It relaxed once I became a teenager but started up very briefly after the birth of my daughter (only for a couple of weeks)
This may sound really stupid and totally illogical but bear with me...
When I was a child I use to set myself tasks and bets. If I couldn't do the tasks or didn’t do them in the time I had set then I thought something awful would happen to the people I loved the most.
Now this one is particularly odd lol. There was a road we used to travel down to visit my aunt. There are cable lines in the road for about a miles stretch, which were different distances apart. In between the lines I used to beep in my head when the front tyres use to be in between two lines. I would set myself the task of having to beep for every single on and if I didn’t manage to get every single one, then something bad would happen (that sounds so ridicules in writing!)
I also use to have to look down this certain gully we use to drive past all the time, as if my life depended on it.
I mainly had thoughts about harm coming to people I really cared about and how horrible it would be. I would get so upset as a child. Now if I do get these thoughts, which isn’t that often anymore, I know that these are just thoughts and won’t actually happen so it’s not as bad. I couldn’t touch anything that could harm someone either, if they were in the same room. After the birth of my daughter I couldn’t empty the dishwasher when she was in the kitchen because i would have to touch the knives and these could potentially kill her! As mad as it sounds i would have to move her into the dining room before I could load and unload the dishwasher!
So after reading this do you think there might be a chance of me having OCD? For years I thought I was a loon and never told anyone about it. If you think I do, then should I see a doctor? It’s not that bad anymore but every now and again I still get it, so would there even be any point in seeing someone about it?
Let me know what you think anyway,
Thanks for reading and any opinions on this would be great!
