This is horrible!!
Okay, so I had a dream one night where i was about to do stuff with another girl, but this time it was my friend. and it was the friend that i kept worrying that i like her cause shes my best friend. is that just ocd coming up in my dreams? or what.
I'm taking 50 mg of Zoloft, because my doctor wants to gtradually increase it. But, i've noticed it hasn't helped me much at all. It did in the beggining, but now not at all. I'm back to my other obsessions, which were:
-I worry about being lesbian, and liking girls, when I know I like guys. I've dated guys in the past, and I have a best friend that i hang out with all the time. And so then I worried that because I like to hang out with her and that i love her, being shes my best friend that i "like" her, when I dont. Then I have pictures of us in my room, and so I worry that i'm obsessed with her because i'm having these thoughts and pictures of us in my room. Does anyone have thoughts like these? I've had similar thoughts before, but idk i hate this it seems like theres no hope at all.
-EVERYTHING i think abuot has to do if i'm lesbian or not, i hate it. I'm straight..I know that so why do i keep thinking this? Like this morning I got on You tube to listen to music like normal, but i had a thought "What if I typed in Lesbian in the search bar"? I have no idea why I thought that!!! Then things just keep building off of that, and its like never ending. Like then I started worrying about watching gay porn and what if i watched it and i liked it. I hate this -_- Anyone ever had anything like this?
Last edited by sadface11111; 03-02-2011 at 01:58 PM.