Okay, so I had a dream one night where i was about to do stuff with another girl, but this time it was my friend. and it was the friend that i kept worrying that i like her cause shes my best friend. is that just ocd coming up in my dreams? or what.
I'm taking 50 mg of Zoloft, because my doctor wants to gtradually increase it. But, i've noticed it hasn't helped me much at all. It did in the beggining, but now not at all. I'm back to my other obsessions, which were:
-I worry about being lesbian, and liking girls, when I know I like guys. I've dated guys in the past, and I have a best friend that i hang out with all the time. And so then I worried that because I like to hang out with her and that i love her, being shes my best friend that i "like" her, when I dont. Then I have pictures of us in my room, and so I worry that i'm obsessed with her because i'm having these thoughts and pictures of us in my room. Does anyone have thoughts like these? I've had similar thoughts before, but idk i hate this it seems like theres no hope at all.
-EVERYTHING i think abuot has to do if i'm lesbian or not, i hate it. I'm straight..I know that so why do i keep thinking this? Like this morning I got on You tube to listen to music like normal, but i had a thought "What if I typed in Lesbian in the search bar"? I have no idea why I thought that!!! Then things just keep building off of that, and its like never ending. Like then I started worrying about watching gay porn and what if i watched it and i liked it. I hate this -_- Anyone ever had anything like this?
Last edited by sadface11111; 03-02-2011 at 12:58 PM.
If you think there is a answer then that will stop ocd then no there is no such answer . the more you ask questions the worse will it get . quetions like what if , why ,dont stop.
the best answer to stop ocd is as follows
1) just dont bother to the question (say **** off i dont care and think posative)
2) you will mind will think again ask you is it possible to just stop ocd by not thinking about it or not paying attention the answer is yes( i also had a severe ocd and got out of it by chating other people who had ocd ,they said the only way to get out of this is just dont think about it....and i chated with 10 people who had this ocd and were now out of this)
3) then put myself on the 11 person and asked myself that out of 11 if 10 can get out of this ocd by simply not giving the thought attention then why cant i (simple probaility if 10 can then 11 can also)and started avoiding when i get a thought i used say **** of it happens then ok letss see . or just used to ignore that.
4)after some time you forget that ocd and you will only think that how foolish you were and y did u waste your time on such a small issue.
5)i was 9 years on ocd and now i am able control it ....i say to my mind that these thoughts are due to ocd and i avoid it.
dont think .....dont try to find answers just say may be or **** off to thought ...and start thinking postive.....if ur ocd of what if says that very negative can happen ....then just remeber me and the 10 people will all went to this and nothing negative can happen its due to ocd .....so ignore
Yes this is def OCD. You should be able to get some help on the OCD UK website. Also, ocd on-line (google it) has some very good articles by dr philippson on people who think they are gay but are not and how to deal with it. Wishing you the best of luck, take care
Its definitely OCD I suffer from a similar type of obsessions, best thing to do is not to think about it and if you have this "feeling" just let it go away it is no more than an intrusive thought. If you feel distress about this thoughts or "feelings" about being lesbian is because in fact you are not thats why it hurts you to think about it, being something you are not.
Hope this helps