dealing with the past
have dealt with OCD since 1995. tried many therapies/meds and i go through periods of good and bad. it is in a bad spot right now.
my wife and i have dated for 8 yrs. and been married 13. so basically been together since high school.
the OCD and the thoughts have been haunting me the past 2 years deal with her sexual past. before we met she had some encounters (no intercourse) with some guys. one of the guys is actually a friend of mine who we only see a handful of times each year. when we first got together i really didnt care about her past nor she w/mine. but now i wonder exactly what happened and of course other crazy thoughts! i realize she was only like 14 at the time but it still bothers me.
i cant stop wondering and when i ask questions she gets mad and she honestly says she cant remember specifics. even songs/movies from that time trigger these thoughts of mine. i cant take it anymore and this is really bringing me down. i have talked w/professionals and tried meds but it is only short term relief.
if you have a similar situation or something worked for you, please post! thank you for any help and ideas.
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