Thought it was just anxiety, but...
I've been battling anxiety and depression for awhile now. I had/have horrible anxiety. I used to have full blown panic attacks 3-5 times a week. I was prescribed Celexa daily, and ativan, as needed. I was on it for a few months, and it helped. I haven't been back to see my doctor or therapist for months... I know, I know... I will make an appt right after I type this.
My problem now, aside from the anxiety and depression is seeing bad things in my head. Play by play. If I watch the news or read an article, like about a car accident for example, I see it in my head, but it's someone I know. Like, "What if it was my kids? My husband? My sister?" The latest one was about my sister in a car accident. I seen it all play by play in my head. The driving in the car, the accident, my mom crying, my self crying, and worst of all, her funeral. By the end of it, it was a full blown panic attack. It was hard to "shake my self" out of it. I KNOW it wasn't real, but it just felt so real. This is all the time.
I always think the worst of anything. I can't help it, but I do and I don't know why. But the irrational thoughts are driving me crazing. Can this me part of OCD? The Obsessive part? Always "seeing" bad things in my head?