I have had OCD for more than a year now, and I'm also a bit of a perfectionnist; the weirdest thing is, sometimes I do my schoolwork perfectly well, and work really really hard to make it look flawless and other times I'll keep putting it off, or do it really badly, even if it's something I should actually enjoy doing. Right now I should be doing my homework but yet again, I'm putting it off even though my mind keeps nagging at me that I should get it done with since it's hard and long. It's really weird.
My intrusive thoughts make me constantly worried about something or other, and I always ask my family for reassurance, but if they say one word wrong I panic more and start crying until they apologise and correct their "mistake"; I feel like I'm setting traps for myself, tripping myself up with my own words voluntarily, and I know I'm making it difficult for my family too, even though they try to support me the best they can. Sometimes, though, the thoughts will just **** me off, but in some way that's even worse; then I'm angry at the whole world for no reason, and I wanna blame someone, anyone for my OCD, problem is who's to blame, really?
I know how it feels when you wanna solve all your problems but they're so big that you don't even know where to start, and it only makes you more miserable; I have the same thing going on here and feel lonely cuz I don't think any other teenager of my school has this exact problem. I feel like my mind is too "loud", too powerful; my thoughts go waaayyy too fast for me and it freaks me out sometimes; I feel like I'm never completely at rest morally -or physically, actually, cuz I get anxiety attacks every day.
I dunno really what would help you; except maybe tell you to make time for some intense physical exercise at least twice a week. Swimming and badminton help me. I know it sounds dumb, but it actually really helps to relieve your anxiety; plus, you'll probably sleep better and be able to feel more rested. I dunno, that works for me, but each person is different; maybe talk to your therapist about it, ask for some advice; he or she will probably be able to give you a better and clearer answer. Good luck with that!