I need help with OCD/paranoia, can't sleep, can't do anything
I have had OCD since I was a kid and my paranoia started to get bad 5 years ago. My paranoia feels different then my OCD but it mixes with my OCD. I used to be paranoid about things to do with my PC, before that I was paranoid about things to do with people doing bad things to men, and now I'm paranoid about the bad things happening to men.
I was in therapy for OCD for a year, they thought I had psychosis one time my paranoia was so bad.
This is how my paranoia works. It will be about something I read online, I'll use one of my examples, I read before that men don't live as long as women. When I read that I had to search and see if men can live longer then women, and when I read that they can, I am not as paranoid. Later I will randomly think about it again and I will have to read those same answers again, even if I remember what the people said.
Thats not the only thing I worry about so it wouldn't be good to talk about if women live longer, but thats how my paranoia works. Yesterday I was online all day asking questions on different sites about things I worry about. I could barely sleep because I couldn't stop thinking about it all. How can I stop worrying?? I don't really want to take medication and if I want therapy, I can't get in for 6 months. I can't leave the house much because I'm worried about our house being broken into, I could leave the house to go to therapy but I can't get in yet.