I need some advice on whether or not to take medication.
Lately I haven't been able to go to school, dunno why really either... I just hate the thought of going there and being stuck for a whole day with those people who I think are really complete idiots (sorry for being mean...
). I tried going there for like, half a day each day but then that went to hell too... so lately I've been trying about two classes a day which, as you can guess, is not so good for me.
My therapist is now strongly advising me to try really small amounts of medication, to take the edge off and make me less afraid to go to school. While I was talking to her about it, I didn't feel sad or miserable, but then after a bit, it's like I'm feeling dull and depressed and unhappy again; I can never stay happy for a long time and it kinda sucks.
She told me there's no risk that I'll become addicted, or it'll have really nasty side effects, or it will end up poisoning my body. Although, she did warn me that we'd perhaps have to try more than one type of medication before we found the one that works for me, as it depends on each person. She told me to think about it seriously.
The main reason I'm not too fond of the idea of taking medication is because, I feel like if I do start taking it, it will make the whole situation seem so much more serious and desperate. I know the situation's not good, but I really don't want to hear anyone going off about how serious and horrible and messy this whole thing is, or how miserable and unhappy I must be. Sorry for rambling, but does anyone have some advice on this medication thing??? Should I really try it?