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Old 03-18-2012, 01:11 AM   #1
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Question Sensorimotor OCD, does anyone else have it? and help!

hey whats doing im 17

ive had really really bad sensorimotor ocd for more than five years now and its ruined my life. i used to be an A+ student, a national level sprinter and one of the popular kids at school, but the smocd forced me to quit as i just couldnt train anymore, and i now barely pass in school. i love sport so much but i cant play, i cant do anything i dont leave the house much apart from school. ima very out-going sociable person and ive been told im the funniest person alive by people, but the smocd makes me unable to socialise with anyone, i just cant be myself i cant talk or do anything. i just wanna be able to do whatever i want, whenever i want, to the best of my ability without having the smocd affecting me. i now have no true close friends, i feel so alone like no one understands the hell i am going through 24/7.

to describe what my problem is: breathing, as in im always thinking about it and cant stop paying attention to it and doing it, always trying to take a bigger and more complete breath thats feels right otherwise i feel really really uncomfortable; blinking, as in i cant stop thinking about it and i cant stop blinking constantly, like literally every 1 2 seconds; sometimes swallowing; fingers feel uncomfortable so i have to keep cracking them; armpits feel uncomfortable in a shirt; various parts of bos
dy feel uncomfortable and i need to scratch several times, usually both sides of body, like if one arm then other arm same part too; cant stop sniffing and thinking about it, same with clearing my throat, and lastly this is really hard to explain but i cant stop like tensing without meaning to? like i cant stop putting pressure if you know what i mean? this and the blinking and breathing are the worst, they are there every second of every day its a nightmare.

im in year 12 so i need to study but i cant concentrate and i have no energy, i really need help im so desperate i pray every night, its all ill ever want, my only wish, just for it to go away. i just wanna start and live my life with the smocd gone forever, please help me! im seeing a psychologist but we just talk, we havent done anything to help me really, i want to try erp and cbt and anything that will help! and im on lovan but it doesnt really help that much, i have some good days occasionally, but usually not. at school every recess and lunch and even during class i got to the toilets to try to make myself feel right but it doesnt work and the rest of my day is no good, i just keep my head down and go into my shell as it gets so bad i cant socialise with anyone. the longest ive ever gone without the smocd has been five hours about a month ago, but i have been unable to repeat that as yet. im trying really hard to find ways to beat it because im fed up i just wanna live.

i felt really alone when i first googled ocd because it was the closest sounding thing to what i had, but it wasnt the same, i didnt do or feel any of the things that were in the common symptoms. recently i delved deeper to be more specific about my ocd but ive only found an ocd article which is amazing. it feels really good to know im not alone and that others are going through the same thing and understand what im feeling. to anyone else going through this reply to me! sorry for the huge post my bad, this is just some straight from the heart emotional stuff. i really need help i just wanna live my life. so is there anyone else here that has the same problem?

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Old 03-19-2012, 12:08 AM   #2
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Re: Sensorimotor OCD, does anyone else have it? and help!

so anyone ?

 
Old 03-23-2012, 07:00 PM   #3
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Re: Sensorimotor OCD, does anyone else have it? and help!

yes, I've had it, and it's hell. It ruined my life for a period of time. I understand and empathize with you. I also couldn't even get peace while sleeping, this stuff seemed in the front of my mind, and I experienced it while in lighter stages of sleep. All I can really say that I can help is that with the right doctor I think it's very likely that you will find a medicine that makes your everyday life more tolerable.
Right now I am on medicine (fluvoxamine) that is really working for me, so the ocd is more occasional (a few times a day that it noticeably interferes with me right now- other than that I am able to make it background noise/background stuff in the edge of my brain). Good luck and I really think it will get better. It seems like it can't get much worse, so if it fluctuates, it has to get milder.

 
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Re: Sensorimotor OCD, does anyone else have it? and help!

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yes, I've had it, and it's hell. It ruined my life for a period of time. I understand and empathize with you. I also couldn't even get peace while sleeping, this stuff seemed in the front of my mind, and I experienced it while in lighter stages of sleep. All I can really say that I can help is that with the right doctor I think it's very likely that you will find a medicine that makes your everyday life more tolerable.
Right now I am on medicine (fluvoxamine) that is really working for me, so the ocd is more occasional (a few times a day that it noticeably interferes with me right now- other than that I am able to make it background noise/background stuff in the edge of my brain). Good luck and I really think it will get better. It seems like it can't get much worse, so if it fluctuates, it has to get milder.
Thanks heaps for replying, sorry I took so long to get back I forgot my password haha. My problem is the opposite, I sleep too much I'm always so mentally and physically exhausted from it but i go to bed real late because I can't be bothered getting ready for bed, and stoopid as it sounds. I just started on lexapro now so hopefully thats works better, I'm confident it will. The psychiastrist and pyschologist I'm seeing are both really good as well.

Thats true, it can't really get much worse the only way is up! cheers for that, hope your doing good as well.

 
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