| | Paranoid about saying something that will come true
I'm afraid that if I say something, it will come true, and if somebody else says something, it will come true as well. I also imagine saying things that I didn't really say, or I twist my words around so if I say something, later on upon remembering that, my memory of what I said is different than what I actually said. It's very annoying and it sounds like it's not a big deal or it's not "serious" but this causes me to wash my hands multiple times a day. Some of my main fears are STDs, feeling like somebody is gossiping about me behind my back, I'm also afraid of gaining weight/afraid I'll become disgusting. My OCD was not serious two years ago but in the summer of 2010 I suddenly began closing the curtains to windows in fear that I was being watched while I undressed. Then in December 2010 I snapped and I began washing my hands a lot more than usual and my hands would be cracked and dry from using too much hand sanitizer.
One thing that tells me my OCD is "real" is the book "The Secret" which says that whatever you think and say will happen. Scary.
Last edited by ParanoidJen; 03-28-2012 at 12:08 PM.