| | Violent OCD Thoughts Associated with Annoyance
I've been diagnosed with anxiety/OCD, and have been getting obsessive thoughts about everything from violent unwanted killing/hurting thoughts to raping my dog and cannibalism. I would never do any of that, ever. Just recently though, I was upset with my mom about something pretty minor, and had a random thought pop into my head about hurting her pretty seriously or wishing her ill harm, even though I don't want that to ever happen to her (she's like my best friend), but I do have anger issues that I'm scared will escalate into something further - never a history of actual violence though. The problems I have are rationalizing my thoughts and trying to distinguish what I really feel from what I just think that's part of my OCD, because there are times I have violent thoughts like hurting someone I actually want to hurt and dislike. Please help! Is this at all normal, what are your guys' experiences with this, and does anyone get the really atypical OCD thoughts like raping and hurting loved ones and animals?
Thanks so much in advance.