Re: I'm brand new here, 16 Pure-OCD,and an ignorant mother.
Hi Lindsey47, from what you had written I can say that it is OCD, and those intrusive thoughts of yours are very painful I know this because I have them, very similar to yours. Well first of all I am not a professional, not yet, I had received CBT and psychiatric help for over a year and I can say it those make a difference. It is true that many people don't understand mental disorders and believe they are just a lack of will, an indicator of weakness or something like that, well it is a disorder and you can't just shook it away. If therapy isn't an option, witch I strongly recommend to see a professional, you can try by reading some books about OCD, there are tons of self help books like Lee Baer's Imp of the Mind, it helped me a lot. As far as some tips try to identify those unwanted thoughts as OCD thoughts and not yours, your desires and your true thoughts in any manner are NOT represented by intrusive thoughts. Whatever you do don't fight those OCD thoughts or think over them, you have to let them through, let them go away, don't fight them accept it as what they are; intrusive thoughts.( if you fight or resist it will get worse). Remember they can't hurt you, come true or anything like that, they are just thoughts.
I wish this will help in someway, just remember let them go don't fight or ruminate over them, differentiate OCD thoughts from yours and be brave.
Train of Thought