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Hello everybody

my problem is that exactly;


and i think maybe someone may answer my question about ocd.

please read and answer it. ( sory for my english)

i always but always in every time i need to check my memory capacity and my intelligence.
so i always try remember peoples' face but i never be convinced when i remebered face. i want remember very very very clearly. in fact i can do this clearly usually. but sometimes i cant but i trust my memory and intelligence. so i think why i cant remmber clearly. so have a hypohtesis and i ask you that : is my hypothesis true?

my hypothesis that basicly: if want to remember a object or to feel a emotion intentionally and force my brain to do this my brain can't this. i dont know exactly what happening in my brain
but i think that when i try remember or feel an emotin intentionaly ;
( for ex. i read a news that a mother lost his child and immediately i ask myself that what does she feel ? can i feel as her ?...
and i try feel as her so i cant i cant. )

but when dont try like this so i can feel as someone very clearly but when i try this intentionaly i cant.

so i say again my hypothesis is that basicly: if want to remember a object or to feel a emotion intentionally and force my brain to do this my brain can't this. i dont know exactly what happening in my brain
but i think that when i try remember or feel an emotin intentionaly.
i think maybe when i try remember or try feel intentionaly an electrical signal goes somewhere and bloke the my remebering systems.
(i dont know, only want explain my question to you)

but if some image or feeling comes instantly i can remember , see or feel very clearly. but if i want and try i can't.

what is this ? am ı right ?

please answer my question. is hypothesis true ? or there is another problem.

thank you so much.