Re: Just an AverageGirl .. looking for Advice :)
Welcome to the boards from another new member. I am sorry you are dealing with so much. It is pretty common for OCD to be combined with other things, such as depression. I am not sure what you mean by anxiety, since OCD is an anxiety disorder. Do you mean you have generalized anxiety (worry about all kinds of things)? Anyway, all of these thigns are best treated with a combination of CBT and an antidepressant. You say you are on meds, but is it an antidepressant you take (most properly an SSRI, eg. Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, etc.)? If you are willing ot, can you list which medication(s) you take and at what dose? Once at the proper dose of an antidepressant, it takes about 4-6 weeks for the maximum effect to happen. An antidepressant can help kick your motivation so tha tyou have more energy to work on CBT, so it may take until your medication has kicked in before CBT starts to help.
Do you know why you lack motivation for CBT? I mean, is it simply that you didn't expect it to be hard work, which all therapy is, or is it that you are too depressed to concentrate, or something else? I think knowing why you are unmotivated can help you kick yourself in the butt (if that is what you need) or get your treatmetn plan adjusted (if it seems it is not working despite you doing the best you can).
I want to wish you all the best and lots of strength, and hope you find lots of support here.