here is my story,
A three months ago I was in a business trip to uk and I was having shoulder pain and my friends suggested a massage in the hotel we were living, then I called the masseur to the room, she did the massage and then she asked for more money and she offered me some sexual pleasure , then I became very anxious as I haven't been before to a prostitute , so I refused the offer and I started freaking out about this incident ;then I decided to get tested after 4 weeks, in a two weeks after the incident (17th day), I started to worry a lot, and I remembered a year ago when I helped a man in an accident when he was bleeding heavily , then I started having panic attacks then I went for a test at that same day .
Since that day I became kind of worrying a lot about HIV infection.
At 28 days from the massage incident I did the combo test and I said it's over.
Two days later , I went to the barber and during shaving he nicked my neck (as always I get because of my hear in opposite direction in some areas) then I started freaking out about this incident, then I decided to do HIV test after three week, and I was very worried about it,
in the day of the test, I was out of concentration and when I left the lab, I started to freak out again about the syringe and I called them and asked about it and they said it was new and we never re-use the syringes(to be honest, I remember there were a big box full of brand new syringes in the clinic near the chair where I sat for blood withdrawal)
Then a gain decided to re-test after tree weeks from that incident<<<<<also I decided to see a doctor for which told me that I had an OCD and Hypochondriasis, and she prescribed (((LUSTURAL 50mg two tablet a day , INDERAL 40 mg two tablets a day and Miratzapine 15 once a day 2 hours before bed.
Now I can feel better in the panic attacks but I still freak out a lot,
last week I decided to do the test after the syringe incident, in the day of the test I used a toilet at work and then I realized that one co-worker who is famous of multiple sexual relations used the toilet before me , then I decided to postpone the test for three weeks a gain to cover this incident!!!
Just a week later ,
I was at the barber shop for a hair cut, then accidently he did a small cut by the scissors behind my ear where little blood and stopped, and again freaking out again
Now I am afraid that I will continuo like this and I am seeking some help about this
-are the incidents mentioned above could cause the HIV infection?
-am I suffering from OCD and Hypochondriasis? And can get red of it?
-are these medication suitable to my case?
-does any one face the same thing so he/she can tell me what did he/she do to overcome this?
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I have had a somewhat similar problem. I just never had any tests run.
I never really thought of diseases too much until I started working in a medical office at a factory. Some of my jobs required me to clean and count towels. This put me into contact with stuff patients used. Even then, I used gloved and didn't really worry. It wasn't until I started doing more in-depth cleaning that I started getting scared.
Many of the patients seen were for cuts. So, when I started really doing the cleaning of the office, I started noticing all the places blood had hidden. I knew that some of these places I had touched with my bare hands because I assumed they were clean. Places like door handles, beds, chairs. When I found out they weren't I started to worry. My worry wasn't even as much for myself as it was for my family. What if I caught something and gave it to them? That scared me to death.
I started checking everything before I would touch it at work. I completely disinfected doorknobs everyday. I even went so far as to disinfect my phone, computer, desk, and chair.
If the nurses left blood on anything I was after them. It didn't seem to bother them that there was blood. They would just wipe it up and go on. I couldn't do that. I was terrified that I would catch something. I had done all kinds of research and found out that it wasn't as easy to catch aids as I thought it was. It died in dried blood relatively fast.
I have another problem though and, to this day I have still not gotten tested. I have a hard time going to the doctor.
I am still almost fanatical at home about any blood. If I cut myself I make sure not to get it on anything. I know that it has been eight years since I left that job. If any symptoms were going to occur they would have done so by now. That still doesn't change how I feel about blood.
The other thing I find myself worrying about is catching something at the store. I know that I have reached into a shelf to grab something and gotten scratched on it. Then my thoughts start to worry about whether someone else who was sick had done the exact same thing. I also don't use public bathrooms unless I can't help it. If I do have to use one, I cover the seat and shower when I get home.
I don't know if this helps you or makes you start worrying more. All I can say is that you are not alone. I try to let my worries go when it comes to my health. They always sit in the back of my head but, since they are only one symptom of my OCD, I have tons to distract me.
The only thing I can recommend that might help is to research Aids. See how much blood it takes to contract it and how long it lives in dried blood. Also, consider getting your own barber tools and taking them with you for use. Then you will know that if you get cut, nobody else has other than you.
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