I've been really worried lately that I have OCD. At this point I've basically convinced myself that I have it, but I might not be right, so I'm looking for a second opinion! Let me start out by describing weird things that I've noticed about myself:
-I need to make things "even" on myself, and by that I mean if I've been looking to the right for a while then I need to look to the left intensely to make it feel even, if I get pinched on one arm I need to pinch the other, etc.
-I take loads of pictures each day because I constantly worry about forgetting things. Like if someone says, "Hey, remember that snow cone place we went to last year? I heard they closed down" I think to myself, "I should have taken a picture of that!" and can't stop thinking about it.
-I write in a journal. Actually, multiple journals of different categories. I don't do it everyday, but if I do find time to write in one, I make sure to set aside several hours for it, because I tend to write a ton. I want to be able to read those journals in the future and remember how life was in the past.
-I get extremely paranoid about demons and such. I always close my curtains at night because I'm convinced a demon will be looking at me through the window. In bed, I think stuff like, "If I don't get my head under the sheets in 5 seconds then a demon will see me and possess me." I believe in God and always remind myself that He will protect me, but that reassurance doesn't always soothe me. At times that I think a demon is in my room, I pray for God to protect me over and over until I feel it's safe to move my head or take my hand from under the pillow or whatever it is.
-I purposely let my room get messy over the time of a week or two so that I can spend all night organizing and cleaning it.
Sorry about the lengthy descriptions. Please help me find out if this is actually OCD and what kind of help I should get, if any!