I have been diagnosed by a physiatrist with OCD and Anxiety but i'm sure it's not just that and I think i have schizophrenia. I have been to see my physciatrist about 4 times and each time he has said I don't have Schizophrenia.
However when i first looked up the symptoms of schizophrenia and read the ones where schizophrenic people believe their thoughts are controlled by others and that aliens have taken over the world- i thought to myself no way do i believe that. But after months of thinking about these symptoms - I think i have become delusional. I have began to wonder - what if people are plotting to get me, what if everyone is out to get me, what if my family are out to get me, what if my cat is an alien what if my ipod is an alien. I've also wondered what if it's not really me talking when i talk to others, I've also wondered what if my thoughts are controlled by others. I've even questioned if I have special abilities. These thoughts all make me very anxious and from time to time when i don't feel anxious I can say to myself no these thoughts are ridiculous and let them go but lately i think I have almost been believing them and when I do feel that way I feel delusional. I'm not sure if these are intrusive thoughts or delusional thoughts but I just wish they would go away - If i was delusional would I actually worry more about the actually thought than the fact that I have had the thought? Please help me. I hope I don't have Schizophrenia