Mmzgirl

I am new to this. Recently I was diagnosed with bi polar disorder and have been taking trileptal for about 10 days. About 2 months ago I had sort of a break down. I told mt husband who was verbally abusive to me (on and off)that it was over and then I went into a deep depression. He has since been going for counseling and is no longer abusive but I cannot get rid of the obsessive thoughts of constantly worrying about our relationship and whether it will work or not. I love him and want it to work but feel constant worry and anxiety. Then I feel guilty about the thoughts and like I am deceiving him. He has been nothing but kind and caring and really wants our marriage to work. I want it to work to but have trouble trusting. We have been going for marriage counseling but the only thing that seems to be standing in our way are this obsessive thoughts. I am also seeing a counselor as well and am also on Paxil . If anyone has feedback for this it would be greatly appreciated.