thank you so much for responding. i try to remind myself that not every thought is an OCD thought and not every emotion is an OCD emotion. I have always been emotional while dealing with OCD at the same time. but this almost feels like grieving to me. like i am grieving for my kids who are not babies anymore and it crushes me. I still can't stop crying. I am trying because I feel myself spiralling down a bit which does not help my OCD symptoms.
last night I took the girls out to dinner because husband was working late. I sat there looking at them from across the table and i felt like i was dying inside because they are getting so big. a hard thing to swallow.