Raziel34

It could be ocd but really, you need to see a professional to get your answers.

OCD typically have rituals, obsessions and compulsions.... There are alot of other disorders out there that have similar symptoms.

If you do alot of checking (which is a really common ocd thing) - that would be one sign. As an example, checking the doors are locked multiple times even though you know they are but compelled to keep checking. Counting and numbers are also a common OCD thing.

Your last sentence didn't make sense to me, you said that you feel like you have to keep looking outside the window an even number of times or you feel like you're having an anxiety attack, followed by saying that you don't have anxiety attacks.... Are you sure you are not having anxiety/panic attacks?

I just wanted to write a quick post as I see people have read this but no responses yet.

I know you want answers, but nobody here can diagnose you, but certainly we are here to talk and help/answer what questions we can!