Re: bad day and a few questions. . .
Although not entirely similar to your OCD of clothing, I too have OCD about wearing certain clothing. It may be due to its patterning or color, and I associate it with something negative happening to me if I do wear it. It leads to me completely avoiding clothing, and its sad because its often clothing which I once liked to wear.
OCD can make a mock of a rational person, and its very unfair. Ive seen it described before as a bully inside your head. I find that one the best I seem to have found.
If you dont do what it says.. does it make you believe you will die? Or perhaps something bad will happen to if you dont do as it says, and then if you do go against it, you sit there for the rest of the day worrying if its going to come and hurt you for trying to beat it? This is how mine works, and its a pain because each time I try to beat it.. it's like something bad does seem to happen! I think anxiety can make us see things which are not normal to see, and its important not to beat yourself because OCD is not an illness which is based upon rational thought.. forget what they call it in science but its not something which can usually be thought away just like normal anxiety.
I have autism (a type of it anyhow) and that made me vunerable to develop OCD for the most part. I also developed PTSD, which is a barrel of laughs with the OCD. Have you been diagnosed as having any other conditions? I could explain the science behind it all if you like, as some people are more susceptible to OCD.. usually those with other conditions such as eating disorders, autistic spectrum disorders and others too. Its all to do with a chemical change in our brains which causes our thoughts to flag up thoughts which bother us, and then they keep repeating and being flagged up hence the whole process of OCD. There's a few different parts of the brain which are involved.. Id have to look it up again but it's likely you're brain is wired differently to others in some way or if nothing less.. is not functioning as it once did before your OCD started. Not a bad thing as such, and definitely nothing serious or major. Usually neuro-chemical related or sensory dysfunction like in autism.
Have a good day. Good to hear and see others with OCD on clothing.
Last edited by ms_mod; 11-23-2012 at 06:18 PM.