ocd so extreme i don't even know if it's ocd
Here's one example. I listened to the song "No Rain" by Blind Melon, then went out to smoke a cigarette. 20 years ago I heard this song while traveling with my friend and his family. One time his mother god mad, not on the same day as i heard the song, but I mocked her by saying, "Ooh you really ticked her off now." I regret saying that. And because one time I heard that song with her in the car and at a later time said that to her, I now tell myself I have to listen to a different song and then go out and smoke a cigarette. A song that doesn't remind me of her. That's one example of my OCD. I obsess on stupid thoughts like that all the time. I know smoking is bad so you don't have to tell me. But how do I get stupid thoughts like this out of my mind. Most of my OCD is about the thoughts I have and the way I obsess on them. Other people are worried about cleanliness, etc. I feel like my OCD is so extreme it's not even OCD. I feel crazy. Can anybody help me?