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Surigo 12-16-2012 09:49 AM

Am I a bad person?
 
A few months ago, I never had any of these happen:

1. I first started getting.." obsessions "; I learned that this was OCD.

2. I didn't get help for this, and things got worse--

Like, I have these impulses/ a voice tells me to do bad things.

Over time, it got REALLY bad. I hear voices and stuff-- Research told me that this was schizophrenia...

3. VV

I never done this before in my life, and I try to fight it, because it disgusts me. I... do this:

V

I..mutter these intrusive thoughts, and then anxiety/guilt comes in, because I don't know WHY I said those, as I don't mean them.

I try humming or biting my tongue, but it still comes into my head, and I don't mean to insult anybody. I know this because I feel horrible afterwards, and not good.

I get upset because I feel as if I'm a horrible , just because I have these thoughts, and that I'm a jerk.

If I were actually that horrible, wouldn't I feel happy and not extremely guilty..?

What do I do?

I'm only teenager years old, I'd like to live and enjoy my life.

birdsandthings 12-16-2012 04:10 PM

Re: Am I a bad person?
 
sweetie, you need to seek medical help. you are not a bad person. you just need to seek help as soon as possible. their are people in the medical field who can help you.

TrainOfThought 12-27-2012 10:37 PM

Re: Am I a bad person?
 
I encourage you strongly that seek medical help As Soon As possible, no matter how much I can reassure you that you are indeed not a bad person, your mental disorder will tell you otherwise. Please seek medical attention, do it now, talk to somebody of trust and search for help, don't waste time its not too late.

birdsandthings 12-28-2012 08:41 AM

Re: Am I a bad person?
 
Surigo, i hope since you posted that you are feeling better about yourself. if you don't have anyone to talk to about your illness this is a good place to get feedback. please let us know how you are doing. [FONT="Comic Sans MS"][/FONT]:wave:

rosequartz 12-28-2012 08:55 AM

Re: Am I a bad person?
 
you're not a bad person, you just have OCD!
hey it happens to the best of us, take comfort you're not alone!
read up on it and maybe it will make you feel better......
it's not schizophrenia, it's OCD
and it can be managed once you understand it!
:angel:


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