I encourage you strongly that seek medical help As Soon As possible, no matter how much I can reassure you that you are indeed not a bad person, your mental disorder will tell you otherwise. Please seek medical attention, do it now, talk to somebody of trust and search for help, don't waste time its not too late.
Surigo, i hope since you posted that you are feeling better about yourself. if you don't have anyone to talk to about your illness this is a good place to get feedback. please let us know how you are doing.
you're not a bad person, you just have OCD!
hey it happens to the best of us, take comfort you're not alone!
read up on it and maybe it will make you feel better......
it's not schizophrenia, it's OCD
and it can be managed once you understand it!