Re: I can't stop worrying
I'm sorry to hear that you are suffering so much and as an OCD sufferer I can relate to what you are going through. The good news is you are trying to get help and that's the first and necessary step to learning how to manage your OCD. The best thing you can do for yourself is to find qualified medical professionals in your area who are familiar with treating OCD and begin therapy and/or medication to address this. Yes OCD sucks, but you CAN treat it and you CAN get back to living your life if you are willing to put some work in to it.
OCD is a condition that has a very real physical cause, our brains have some miswiring in them. Its unfortunate, obviously no one wants to be sick or have a disability or disorder, etc. but we are fortunate enough to live in a time where effective methods of treatment exist.
It may help you to learn how OCD works, both from a biological and a psychological standpoint. There are various resources on the internet and in books where you can find that information, do a quick search for OCD and you'll find links to many of them pretty quickly, including hopefully some in your area. Also speak with your health care provider as soon as possible about getting treatment. And of course you can share your concerns here or with in person support groups of fellow sufferers. Sometimes being able to talk to someone who knows what you are going through can make a big difference.