Re: Is this OCD? Do i have it?
First, a brief summary, OCD is an anxiety disorder, sufferers of OCD find ourselves plagued with intrusive troubling thoughts that we just can't seem to shake no matter how hard we try. In our efforts to alleviate the anxiety these unwanted thoughts cause we engage in mental or physical rituals to gain temporary relief from the anxiety, but those compulsions don't actually benefit us in the long run.
From your descriptions it sounds like you definitely engage in compulsive behaviors which could be indicative of OCD. Excessive checking, feeling the need to engage in behaviors a set amount of times, ruminating on your thoughts, neatness and symmetry.
However I noticed that you don't mention the anxious and intrusive thoughts. Now that may just be reluctance to mention them to others, or you may not realize they are out of the ordinary if you have been living with them for a long time.
Many of the traits you describe in yourself are part of the spectrum of human behavior, tidiness, anxiety about new situations, however your descriptions strike me as beyond that of the average person.
Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is highly effective in treating OCD, and I definitely recommend it whether you are on medication or not. In fact based on personal experience you will be better served not relying solely on medication, having the skills garnered from CBT are invaluable. Sometimes the medical s effects can wane but you can always rely on your therapeutic training.
Regardless of whether its OCD or not my advice is to talk to a qualified psychiatrist and/or therapist who is familiar with anxiety disorders to determine more accurately if you have OCD or perhaps some other related conditions. A psychiatrist can help you decide if medication is needed and which to try. Definitely do not try medication without the oversight of a qualified professional. You have come here because you aren't happy with things in your life and OCD or not it sounds like you have things you want to improve. Looking for help is a big first step, I hope you find the answers you are looking for soon!