ocd so extreme, please help
I'm in the middle of a ritual right now. Here's how it works. I walk into a room. Touch both sides of my face. Count how much money I have in my wallet. Touch both sides of my face again. And then say, "the ritual is done, nothing matters. It doesn't matter what I think, nothing matters." Then leave the room. I just completed this ritual. But I didn't close the door before I walked out of the room. That makes me think I have to do the ritual again, even though I know in reality it's pointless. The reason why I say, "the ritual is done nothing matters..." is because I don't want anything to matter after the ritual is complete. But I still have the obsession in my mind that I didn't close the door. I have so many ocd rituals it's ridiculous. I have to touch both sides of my face often even when I'm surfing the internet. It's like I go to a website, and when I leave I have to make sure I go back to my homepage. Then close the browser, then touch both sides of my face. If I don't do this I have to revisit the same website. I'm on 3 different kinds of medication right now. Zyprexa, Stellazine and Buspar. I'm on medications for illnesses that I don't have which is a whole other story that I won't waste your time with. I visit a psychologist/social worker once a month but he's useless in helping me. I also see a doctor to get refills on my medication. I told myself at the beginning of February I'm going to stop all of these OCD rituals. I do this often at the beginning of each month. I thought the new year would bring new hope but my OCD is worse this month than any other month I can think of. Is there any medication that can be prescribed for OCD and can anybody relate to what I'm going through? Please respond.