| | It's coming back... and now it's food
So, I live in this third world country where mental disorders are not very known or accepted. I was first diagnosed when I was a teenager but have gone untreated for most of this past 10 years.
After I ended a relationship that was giving me serious migraines and panic attacks, I found refuge in Yoga, meditation, exercise in general and starting a career a ghostwriter.
i just came back from a 4 day, very extreme hike to the highest mountain of the Caribbean, and I thought it could only help my good mood. But now I find myself obsessing over FOOD. Since I can't do anything but yoga for at least 4 more days, I've been waking up thinking about what I'm going to eat, over analyzing if I didn't eat too much, feeling guilty after I eat, and thinking about my next meal before I finish the current one.
I get anxious thinking about when, where, what I'm going to eat and who's going to see me eat it. I'm constantly thinking about buying laxatives but I've been strong enough to keep away from them so far.
I'm scared, this is not letting me concentrate in my work, and I'm constantly just looking for websites on healthy eating, and exercising, and nothing seems to do the trick.
Aye, I think I'm done with the venting *I need a cup cake*