hello all. i have ocd. some of you do too. it's okay.
I am new to this website, I came across it as I was searching on Google for a way to consciously make my showers shorter.
As you may have guessed by that statement, I have OCD. I have the particular kind that makes me terrified of germs so I clean extensively, and I also count when I do many activities. I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist in November 2012 (finally!!), after suffering from it since I was a little girl. The earliest memories I have are of me as a little kid pulling my socks up over my knees and crying when they didn't sit right, having to tie my shoes in a perfect, and I mean perfect bow and then double knot them so they wouldn't come undone, and needing to have my pants above my belly button or I would cry.
Over the years, trauma occurred in my life and my symptoms became worse. I developed depression and actually more recently (2011), anxiety. For years now, I have had two hour (for some time it was three hours) long shower sessions. I brush my teeth, making sure that I am always slurping up 8 slurps of water each time I bring the toothbrush to my mouth, then I must floss thoroughly, and use Listerine. Fifteen minutes later I clean my nails and file them, and then get in the shower where I begin by washing my hands with soap. I shampoo excessively, then put conditioner in, then wash my body excessively, then rinse everything off and wash my face. Sounds pretty normal right? Well, by the time I am done this routine, I have been in the shower for about 30 to 40 minutes. I do this every day. And because I do this everyday, some days I am just too exhausted to do it so I won't shower that day because my skin needs a break, and I need a break. Well, then I make sure that the day after I've slept in my bed without showering or even simply without having washed my face the night before because I was too tired, I wash those bed sheets and put them back on. So as a result, I wash my bed sheets about three times a week.
I am struggling, but I am positive. When I was diagnosed with OCD, depression, and anxiety in November 2012, I was on the birth control pill for irregular periods. Sorry men, I don't mean to make things weird for you but I need to help the ladies out there if I can. Well the psychiatrist wanted to put me on prozac, but I wanted to be all natural and healthy again so told him I wanted to go off of my birth control pill first, to see if that would change anything. Ladies, my depression is gone and my anxiety has lessened. There was a time in 2012 not so long ago, that I lived in fear every single day that someone was going to kill me. Now, after going off the pill the only thing I suffer from is OCD and mild anxiety. Another great thing to try is working out. In January 2013 I started to dedicate my free time to health and fitness, and let me tell you, it's a high. It relaxes you, makes you happy, and gives you energy. Those are my two pieces of advice for now.
Like I said, I'm still struggling with OCD, and at the moment looking for a way to shorten my showers so I can stop over washing my skin. I'm here to support others, and get support in return. Thank you for reading. Cheers!