Re: Intrusive thoughts
I promise you are not a deluded disgusting human being. One of the basic, bottom line characteristics of these thoughts is that they only happen regarding the people and things you love the most.
For me, it started out as what they call religious OCD. I was constantly compelled to curse God and the Holy Spirit and even think weird things about them. This started when I was 16. For years, I drank alcohol because I was convinced I was going to Hell and needed to escape that fear.
I turned the alcoholism over to God, got involved in church, everything was going great, and then BOOM. It started happening again. But this time it was inappropriate thoughts about people I really care about. It's almost like I was doing it on purpose. I seemed to be absolutely COMPELLED to think the worst things I could come up with. I was convinced that I was worthless and that no one would love me if the knew these things about me. I began having panic attacks and just wishing I was dead.
I did two things: I continued reading my Bible and talking to God (although I was so completely depressed that I didn't even want to) and I went to the doctor. I was diagnosed with OCD (which I had already figured out was wrong with me) and was prescribed medication. All of this is helping tremendously.
There is HOPE for you. I do not even know your name, but I will be praying for you. The bottom line is this: The type of OCD we experience is based on the fact that the very thoughts you fear are the ones you are compelled to have. You FEAR the thoughts. As long as you are as terrified of them as you are, you will continue to have them. I urge you to pray about this, and I urge you to read God's word. I will pray for you as well. God's word says if two or more are praying for a certain thing in Jesus' name, it will be granted. I will be praying in faith, and if you pray too, I guarantee you, you WILL see results. Please have faith.
Last edited by Administrator; 01-24-2014 at 08:28 PM.