Help: have i got ROCD?
Hi there i am new to forums but i feel the need to post as i am becoming desperate to see if anyone can empathise with me.
I have been suffering with what doctors have said is anxiety and depression for 18 months now and am struggling to deal with it.
It started out by being convinced i cheated on my fiance, my mind told me i had done it and i was doing ocds at the time.
At the moment i have 10/11 days of happiness and comfortable state but then have 5/6 days of sheer anguish, during this time i suffer from what can only be described as something strange. I still feel i have cheated and feel guilty and horrible, on top of this everything i do in a day i analyse and have to know what i have done. What i ate for breakfast all week, what i watched on tv every night, where i went every day etc. it is with absolutely everything i do and say. I also feel like i wasn't with the person i was with, its like a depersonalization and dream-like state.
On a good 10/11 days i do not feel like ive cheated and do not analyse anything so when it turns into a bad patch it is really bad.
I have been seeing a counsellor for 6 months and taking fluoxetine for a year but i am still suffering. I have also tried self-help techniques like exercise, relaxation and healthy foods but on bad days i feel like i have cheated on that day when i havent.
Me and my partner were incredibly happy before all this and i would never even look at anyone else let alone be with some one.
Please help me as i feel i cant cope much longer especially since its effecting my relationship and as there are other bad issues in my life at present.