What's my next step?
I suffer from paralyzing obsessive thoughts. The constant barrage of overwhelming, self-critical thoughts has caused me to fail out of school and has cast a shadow of depression over every area of my life. I've been really trying to get my life together recently, but it's so difficult when I feel like I have no happy moments to look forward to anymore.
HOWEVER, I've been very proactive in attempting to remedy my condition (which I perceive to be Pure O?). However, my results have been limited at best. I've been in therapy for two years, with four very qualified therapists, but with few results. I regularly exercise, socialize, and generally strive to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I've also tried multiple medications which I will list below:
Antidepressants (Lexapro, Luvox, Cymbalta, Wellbutrin): absolutely zero effect after taking 4-5 weeks. No side effects either, even after I came off these medications cold turkey
Benzos (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin): knocked me out, no effect on obssesive thoughts
Stimulants (Ritalin, Adderall): Adderall has actually been the only thing to help improve the symptoms of my condition. However, Adderall (along with Ritaln) also made me very shifty and nervous and induced horrible crashes and stomach pains
Others (Strattera, Nuvigil, Intuniv): zero effect. Nuvigil makes me particularly anxious
I was thinking my next step would be to try an antipsychotic, but what's really the point? I've been in therapy for years and have tried 12 medications, all with no luck. Anyone have any suggestions?
Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this. It means the world to me.