nightowl2

Hi!
I had posted something about this myself awhile ago and I received a lot of replies on this.I too, do this! I am at this time NOT PULLING and "Practicing" NOT to do it.I am in a therapy class that deals with o.c.d. The last time that I was in the class(before Thanksgiving) I was going to "practice" not doing it.(Before, I was pulling all of the time and my eyes were really hurting and I had the driest eyes, so dry that when I would drive at night,I couldn't see that well and the lights would beam into my eyes and sometimes my eyes would really water up)!! The incentive is to do something else with my hands and not to hurt my face.My therapist and the group all told me that basically what I was doing to myself was "abuse". I used to tell my therapist that I liked doing it to myself, because I was so used to doing it. It kind of calmed me down, pulling, ya know? But, now I just fight the urge that I feel. It isn't easy, because I feel it every now and then, but,I just tell myself that the message that I am recieving in my brain, is a false message.The O.C.D. just wants me to do the thing that I know is NOT okay to be doing.I am also changing my brain chemistry as I speak to you.So, perhaps, maybe I will not have a need to do this kind of damage to myself anymore.(Mind you, this is terribly hard for me, but, I am "Practicing" as hard as I can)!!!!!Our group doesn't use the word :"Trying", because it just sets you up to fail. I wish you the best luck and whatever else might work for you. Use incentives to get yourself to stop.Some of my incentives are that I want to look "Pretty" again,and not strange looking.Also, I want to be able to see where I am going with out getting dust in my eyes and nearly going blind.Another is taking great care of my eyes.I have heard that messing with your face can damage your eyes or your brain ,depending on where you are hurting yourself.Picking/gouging out blackheads and whiteheads can also hurt you.Take care of YOU, Love YOURSELF! Remember, YOU are WORTHY!!! It's hard to quit, but, YOU CAN DO IT! My motto is Never say Never! Believe that you can change this habit. So far, I am really proud of the fact that I haven't touched my face that much, and my eyelashes ARE growing back.I do not plan to pull on them. I'll just have to find something else to be doing.I'll be thinking of you and the others and hoping great things for everyone! Nightowl2

P.S.Smile, smile,smile!