Mario21

well, your first problem is "why me." you can't think that. that will tell your body that you are scared of panic attacks, and you will get more of them. i was diagnosed with panic disorder, and was cured from it within 4 months without meds. i still have mild anxiety, but no panic attacks. i used to be in the ER 4-5 times a week. my med bills are around 10 grand because of it. you need to realize that no matter what your body does, no matter how your throat feels, no matter how fast your heart races....if its just panic, it can't do anything to you. its harmless. that is one of the weirdest things about this disorder. you honestly feel like you are going to die, right there, trust me i know. but as soon as you can say to yourself, "ok, well, i have a panic disorder, i admit it, but now its time to get back on track." you will start recovering. next time you start having a panic attack, lay down and close your eyes. steady your breathing, and ask yourself "c'mon, is this the worst you can do." and make it a joke. i used to get depersonalization all the time, but then, i used to lay down and say "ok, i feel weird, can you make me feel any weirder than this, is this the best you can do." and by doing that, your telling your body that, its not as bad as you can handle. you've handled it before, and you can again. and just by waiting that 5-10 min, it'll pass, and you'll begin to realize that you can handle it, its not bad at all. just keep an eye on your breathing, make sure you keep it steady, and admit to yourself you have panic....cuz if you don't, you'll hide from it, and thats what panic likes. good luck.