| | this is a very weird story and i'm so scared!
yeah. it's all odd and morbid and I'm scared sh*tless at this point. I"ll try to keep this short.
Basically, I have Schizophrenia, and a few days ago, I had a very freaky hallucination of a ****-roach-type of bug burrowing itself into my leg. I freaked out and started trying to pull it off of my leg and then I started scratching at it because that didn't work. I soon realized I needed to calm down because I was just hallucinating again, so I turned my head away and waited for it to go away.
the next morning, I had a patch of scratched away skin wear the bug had been. It was scabbed over and I didn't think much of it...
Yesterday, a bunch of red dots started forming around the scabbed area...actually the red dots kind've look like razor burn, or ingrown hairs or zits or whatever. And according to what I've been reading, having a bunch of these in one area could mean a staff infection.
But that's not why I'm so scared. Last night was a really bad night for me. I've self mutilated a lot in the past (mostly cutting my arms and wrists) and last night I cut my wrist pretty bad. Now the cuts are all red and puffy--a lot more than usual, and there are some of those same little red bumps forming near them. I'm really afraid that I might have spread some sort of staff infection into these cuts. They're fairly deep....down to the vein in my wrist. and I terrified this is going to get really bad and that I might die. I don't want to die.
maybe I'm overreacting, or maybe I'm right in thinking I should probably rive myself to the friggin hospital right now and have it all checked out....I've heard of people dieing from skin staff infections if they aren't treated soon enough.
What should I do??! help!